Here's the truth. Posted by Justin

I have done my best to censor at Michelle's request the blog updates from the last week or so. I asked Michelle for permission to post the truth about the severity of the situation. Michelle came home from the hospital after her last surgery and showed some promise of improvement. After being home for ten days she started to fight an infection. She had a constant fever of over 101 for around 3 days. She also pointed out to me about three spots that had shown up, a lump on the top of her head, one in her armpit and one on the right side of her jaw. I knew what they were as soon as she showed me, we didn't need a Dr's confirmation.
She went to her Dr that afternoon and he confirmed our worst fears. The treatments are no longer working and the cancer is having it's way with her. The three spots have become at last count 44. That is only what we can see and feel. We don't know exactly what's going on inside her body and against her organs. She is on more pain medications than you can possibly imagine, antinausea meds, antibiotics, and chemotherapy. The chemo is a last ditch effort and it would surprise everybody if it worked at all. It isn't designed to cure her at this point, just buy her time. She only has one more day of the chemo and than 23 days off before starting again.
If you have been trying to figure out when to come see her, now is the time. She isn't going anywhere right away, but it is coming. She will not be returning to the hospital if at all possible, she wants to go at home surrounded by her family. It will be difficult for all of us but this is what she wants. We are hoping that it will be a tremendous spiritual experience for our family but our biggest hope is that she will not suffer any longer than she needs to.
As you read this I'm sure this may come as a shock to many of you as we have all held out hope as long as possible. I wish I could give everyone some sort of timeframe but it is coming sooner rather than later. please don't put off saying your goodbyes. If it is too difficult to come see her, we completely understand. She can feel your love and support. Our door is open unless she is not feeling up to visitors but we are accomodating everyone that we can that wants to come see her.
Our ward, family and friends have been fantastic. I cannot say thank you enough to everyone for all that they have done to help and support our family. We are so grateful to her care providers at Huntsman as well. What an amazing faclity it is. We are so blessed to have such an incredible hospital so close. Her Dr's have been incredible as have all of her nurses. We have forged everlasting relationships with many people at the hospital and we will never forget any of them. Please keep Michelle in your prayers but turn your thoughts and prayers to her comfort.